I have no pictures for my first camp. No good memories for me. I avoided any cameras in the room. I was left behind. That was how I felt but I told myself. No one will make room for me unless myself.
As I reflect, I found that every time I got into something, I was thrown into a position where it needed me to straight away swim in the deep blue sea and still rock on. It is indeed kind of hard but I don't know why I am always in this kind of position.
I almost quite. Still having some kind of quitting attitude in me. I feel that my blog is boring because not many updates and pictures or interesting insight. I kind of lost my creativity to look for the next answer.
I need to live above the line. That is the echo in my mind and ears. I want to quite facebook n blog but I tell myself - live above the line.
I guess when I read back I will surprise myself again.
6 Dec 2009
In the midst of working, I think that I kind of like my new job. I want to work more and more for my new centre. I will be fully in charge of my centre in another 3 months. I pray hard that I can make decision and take all the responsibilities given.
I love teaching the children. They are so so adorable. Every session with them is just not enough. Each week I see them, they are growing more intelligent and adorable.
Looking at the syllabus, I have a good guidance and materials to teach children now. I love it! I like the programme and the books. It is something I have been looking for education. I believe in what I am doing but there is still some holding back. I still don't want to count the eggs before they hatch.
He will be back tomorrow. It was so difficult to count the days til he is back.
I love teaching the children. They are so so adorable. Every session with them is just not enough. Each week I see them, they are growing more intelligent and adorable.
Looking at the syllabus, I have a good guidance and materials to teach children now. I love it! I like the programme and the books. It is something I have been looking for education. I believe in what I am doing but there is still some holding back. I still don't want to count the eggs before they hatch.
He will be back tomorrow. It was so difficult to count the days til he is back.
29 Nov 2009
This is the first day I start to really analyse how to plot and plan worksheets for students. Kind of nervous actually. Honestly, I kind of worried. After watching and dancing with Lady Gaga's song. I felt that as if God's spirit and boldness had left me. It felt bad. It was as if I depend on myself now.
It is as if I am so lonely and left alone.
I suddenly feel weird. Why this kind of fear enter my spirit. I guess the key is not about her or her song. The key is regardless how I feel the promise of God will not leave me and when I pray in His name Jesus was here and is still here for me.
I miss 'him'. I hope he is home very very soon.
It is as if I am so lonely and left alone.
I suddenly feel weird. Why this kind of fear enter my spirit. I guess the key is not about her or her song. The key is regardless how I feel the promise of God will not leave me and when I pray in His name Jesus was here and is still here for me.
I miss 'him'. I hope he is home very very soon.
Today was indeed a day that I live by faith and God is so real and good. He led me through another day with blessing and his strong mighty presence. I love Jesus more and more. Believe in Him like never before every day. He is great almighty. Others have the same problems, maybe get the same blessing like I do but I sing and jump in joy because I know who is my Creator who protects me and hold my hands to walk with Him and I have His mighty protection all over me.
So, there was this stranger bumped into me. MPH book sales is at desa Park City! Exciting xD
So after work and dinner, I walked there to check out some good stuff. The whole irresistible books of Frank McCourt are selling hot there! With 20% off - Yes, even the 'Teacher Man'. It was out of stock for some time last year. The Time Traveller's Wife and the whole collection of Amy Tan's books are selling at a good price. I was so excited and I secretly wished Soon Chen, Janice and Kee Aun were there. I hold the books - Teacher Man and The Time Traveller's Wife - for more than 30 min and the mind was counting how much left in my pocket and bank to survive for another few more months. I had to put them back and looked around in case any big fans of these books suddenly come and grab them all.
Suddenly, there was this stranger, in black polo neck shirt, bumped into me from behind. The sudden shoulder rub made me nearly fall down. He got a shock and was so worried that I would fall - he hold my waist gently - Yes, as in the movie or the Bollywood movie - the hero hold the heroin's waist to save her from falling down xD That stranger was actually quite good looking - Pan Asia or Chindian kind of look - Tall and bit hairy - like George xD, he was very shy that he did not dare to look at me. His face was looking down all the time. I felt kind of shy too especially when he hold my waist xD
I put the books back and he quickly walked to other sides to look for other books. Maybe he was the big fan of Frank McCourt and Time Travellers wife and he got excited to find the books were right in front of him
Thinking back, it was kind of funny and sweet.
I wish 'he' was there. The fourth day 'he' is in Singapore. Miss his smell, his voice and his crazy singing. Miss to see him wearing his 'pants' at home xD It is like something missing without him at home to disturb and to be disturbed.
Every day is another sweet day with Jesus. Have Faith is the way and only we can put down our pride and be humble. God loves the humble.
:)
So, there was this stranger bumped into me. MPH book sales is at desa Park City! Exciting xD
So after work and dinner, I walked there to check out some good stuff. The whole irresistible books of Frank McCourt are selling hot there! With 20% off - Yes, even the 'Teacher Man'. It was out of stock for some time last year. The Time Traveller's Wife and the whole collection of Amy Tan's books are selling at a good price. I was so excited and I secretly wished Soon Chen, Janice and Kee Aun were there. I hold the books - Teacher Man and The Time Traveller's Wife - for more than 30 min and the mind was counting how much left in my pocket and bank to survive for another few more months. I had to put them back and looked around in case any big fans of these books suddenly come and grab them all.
Suddenly, there was this stranger, in black polo neck shirt, bumped into me from behind. The sudden shoulder rub made me nearly fall down. He got a shock and was so worried that I would fall - he hold my waist gently - Yes, as in the movie or the Bollywood movie - the hero hold the heroin's waist to save her from falling down xD That stranger was actually quite good looking - Pan Asia or Chindian kind of look - Tall and bit hairy - like George xD, he was very shy that he did not dare to look at me. His face was looking down all the time. I felt kind of shy too especially when he hold my waist xD
I put the books back and he quickly walked to other sides to look for other books. Maybe he was the big fan of Frank McCourt and Time Travellers wife and he got excited to find the books were right in front of him
Thinking back, it was kind of funny and sweet.
I wish 'he' was there. The fourth day 'he' is in Singapore. Miss his smell, his voice and his crazy singing. Miss to see him wearing his 'pants' at home xD It is like something missing without him at home to disturb and to be disturbed.
Every day is another sweet day with Jesus. Have Faith is the way and only we can put down our pride and be humble. God loves the humble.
:)
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