Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you - Mat 5:43-44

When anger is still stirring in me, it leads me to another level of emotion and hatre will start to grow in me.

The anger has came to a point that if I do not deal with it, it is going to bring me to disaster to my life. It will chain me to forgiveness and hurt. I do not realise that at all, part of me keep telling myself it is part of life. Just let it pass then it will be fine. But it just never pass. Trust me. It just never. In fact, it stirs me up more than just an issue when problem comes.

My dear Lord Jesus said to me today,

You have heard that it was said, "Love your neighbor and hate your enemy."

But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you (Matthew 5:43-44).

1 Corinthians 13:1-13 - Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

It rings like an alarm into my head. Soft, gentle but 'annoying' enough that wakes me up.

Yes, the enemy has its way to persecute me. In so many ways that words cannot explain and tongue is hard to explain.

I was so much into my own anger, caught up by my own anger, that I almost forgot about what Jesus said and taught about love. I also forgot that Jesus walked with me even when that moment, He knows what happened to me, happened and my feeling hurt.

Look upon Jesus of His love when anger is stirring deeper inside. I am still learning to forgive and love. May God helps me to pray for my enemy and continue to love.

I am loosing my head now.

I tell myself I will never miss church again.

This morning I woke up with 'one kind' of feeling, my body was just not connected to my mind. I wanted to go to church so much but my body told me that she was too exhausted to get up for me to church.

The trouble doubled up I was told to drive to church myself.

My body continued to lay down to rest for awhile... Without realizing, I fell asleep.

I found myself woke up at 11.56am.

I felt regret the whole day after that. Regretted that I did not insist to go with them to church and I hated my body was so weak.

Smart Kids Exhibition

Smart Kids exhibition at PWTC.

Consultation

I told myself many times that a blog without photos is just not colourful enough.

It feels one kind as I posted these photos as I don't like to talk about work and even post it up as though it is part of important events that worth to be reflected in my personal journal - my blog.

I post them in my blog as I feel that I want to share my life with most of my readers and friends who did not see me for a long time.

Believing in a programme and be the instructor to teach the syllabus are hardly my cup of tea. I would rather stick to the classic teaching methods. However, in Mr. Lim's class, the discussion of using a good programme and books to teach had been in my mind. The discussion and acknowledgment of Mr. Lim encourage and inspire me to be the instructor and franchisee of the programme.

It has been more 5 months ever since I use the syllabus, the books and worksheets to teach young children and advance learners. I find that it is a good programme and it has proven result to help to develop the learner's mind.

Most of the Franchisees instructors are not misusing the programme just to make money. Some minds tend to have such prespective. They are working very hard and in many ways they are trying to help many students and children to bring the best out of them and to train them to develop sharp mind.

Some educators do not have good impression about the private educator. Perhaps they think that we, as I am one of the private educators, just want money and hardly care for the progression of the students. It is a fallacy.

It is time to break the fallacy.

We are working hard and care very much for all our students. Each time when a child manage to solve a question, we cheer for them. When they are able to answer correctly and score well in school, we jump for joy with them.

I do not know how to conclude my journal. I tell myself I do not need a conclusion as though I am writing a formal essay because it is my journal I end it the way I feel I want to.

Last but not least, all I have now is simply because of Jesus and His favour upon me. It is Him and His grace.

Gen code reading

My time pass very fast. It has been so fast that I feel it is not up to date to blog.

I give thanks to God for fruitful and meaningful time I have been through.

Parents go crazy when they don't know how to handle their children. And, some even claim that children are gift so you can't choose. They search for many ways, books, religious help and medical help. Now, parents are more civilised and educated, they go for Gen-code reading. The child just need to press his thumb and other fingers on a small machine, like the one we see when we go to register our Identity card, then the machine will analyse his inborn character. The programme will read his inborn character as well as his health condition. The agent will give you recommendation and suggestions on how to teach and control your child. A saying says 'Good things never come cheap'. It is indeed the course is expensive but many parents are very curious to know and they are will to spend that amount of money.

I ask myself would I do the same thing too to read my child's inborn character. My answer is 50, 50. I think back the old generation when they do not need any of this yet they can train good people who have common sense, manners and respect other people. How do they do that?

On the other hand, there are many broken relationships since the older generations as they do not know how to share common interest and they do not share the language of love. Hence, they do not have good relationships.

Would gen-code helps to improve relationships and parenting skills? It is really interesting to know. Will you update.

Psalm 3 Reformation

Reformation is a change of mindset, mentality, paradigm and etc.

Reformation of spirit is removing dryness, deadness, renew faith and hope in God.

Pastor Ong Sek Leang

'The people will wander through the land, discouraged and hungry. In their hungry and their anger they will curse their king and their God. They may look up to the sky or start at the ground, but they will see nothing but trouble and darkness, terrifying darkness into which they are being driven.' Isaiah 8:21-22

This speaks about the nature of human. I, for one, will feel angry and frustrated and see nothing but trouble when things happen. I will even start cursing people.

Psalm 2 First time

First time experience to count as reformation:

cleaning service

temporary house mate and maid

door lock spoils and hardly get into my own house

holding full responsibility in educating other people's children

giving out name card to be called 'Instructor'

to be praised as the child has improvement in studies

live without salary for almost quarter of the month

talk without feeling intimidated and ' pai seh'