Trust me. I already think of how to do a doll house ;) Use book shelf. It looks plain but I believe that I can turn it into a fun, spacious and well planned doll house.
I still keep all the barbie clothes my mom sew for me and the furniture I 'custom' made for my barbie. They are antique!!! I will pass it on for my future daughters and play with them. I will buy them Kent coz I don't have one xD I want to think of creative ways to design the doll house, how to plan and how to utilise the things we have or recycle them to be something for the barbie collection :P
Laugh at me if you want. I don't care. That is my childhood passion and dream =p
This is a DIY doll house someone did and try to sell it
and Ching Pey... can't find her photo... =/We had a pasta party this afternoon. We cooked. Thanks ladies ;)
Justice
justice,
JUSTICE.
Where have you been?
They are killing her silently.
LOVE
love
LOVE.
No heart among them has you stay inside.
They let you become just lust.
I try.
I tried. i try i am trying I AM TRYING
not to stop loving them but my heart is tired and angry for their deed.
My life is in Your hand. Lord, have mercy for us. Have mercy for us. Have mercy for us.
Hear my prayer from my compasionate heart for the land I live.
I got it! I got it! Excited yet I have my worries. I wish it is a confirm that I get it. :)
I learn to list down my worries and then see what I can do about it:
1. I hope others won't put too much expectation from me just because I got a professional degree in education. I am still learning and on the way to professional. I am willing to learn. I am willing to learn from the zero to hero.
2. I am worried that I might not be able to handle them.
3. I am worried that my written language is not good enough.
4. I think sometimes I have low self esteem that is why I am anxious about doing mistakes.
5. I hope my conversation with the boss is guided with wisdom and pray that Jesus is at my side.
6. I hope they inform me as soon as they can where they are sending me.
7. I hope I mean what I say. I don't want to say about my plans or passion or interest just because I am in the situation that I must say something. Yet, I mean it if I really say it.
8. I worry that I might disappoint people as I don't think I am proffesional yet. I will learn :) I promise!
This is the year and the months that most of us come to a point that we could not decide what is the next step. I feel that I am on a peak wondering where to jump and worry where will I land. But, I believe once we have decided we will jump down and spear our wings and fly freely like birds.
All the best for all of my friends. May God bless you and protect you along the ways you walk.
I woke up just now from my long nap. It was 7.40p.m. Opps, I think I have overslept a bit. I feel very tired... most of all, I feel a hole missing in the heart and I feel cold.
I feel guilty for not lowering my voice til the most gentle one. I raised my voice. What was in my mind? What have I done? Why I feel so stress up? Will we end up arguing even if I lower my voice and explain with a gentle tone? And will they even listen to me when I explain even I lower my voice?
Where is your empathy? Why can't you all understand me for what I have told you, for what I have explained to you all again and again?
My heart is broken. I know now.
I am trying to put pieces broken heart back to its place and I used to cry. I can't fight the tears that are coming down.
I come out from the same house, think and respond to the same issues and even share the same blood. But, I can't understand why they can't understand me and accept me. Ya, who am I to say? I am nobody. I might not understand them at all too.
Now is my crucial time to choose direction. What you all know about future? Especially what I want and what I really want to break through. All you know is to ask me to go back and stay in the house doing nothing, no direction, not to mention nobody to lead me, not more to say it is again another Egypt enslavement, maybe God intends to make me Joseph, I have to fight alone and live life with hard labour... maybe through these God will reveal...but can I live like that? To be honest, I can't.
I never like to complain. Not in front of them at all. But, today I break the rules. Damn what the fortune tellers who prophesied I am a bad child, I am proud, I won't love my family. Damn the fortune tellers who poisoned their minds. Damn the hearts that believe and accused me for every single detail things I do without using the brain to think. I won't return for good other than visit poeple who know me. Not even a car to drive around to find a damn job to survive, not even more space for me to put my books, not even want to change any arrangement of table or chair to at least make some space. Anyway, I don't want to go back. My heart is staying here in Isreal. Island, how cruel you have treated me. I will make myself go back for them but not for you.
The song of 'I will survive!' is playing in the radio. I will survive.
Perhaps today the lesson God wants me to learn is forgiveness.
What a day~!!!!!!
Situation number 1: JAM and very jam in the car park. Drivers were pressing their horn non stop and without mercy regardless whether you are the cause of the jam or not. I am serious abt the NON STOP part. Crazy than some penang drivers. The sound, the horn, and the congestion give us such a stress.
Situation 2: I went to Guardian. Lined up at the pharmacy counter. Not feeling well, heavy flue that caused my right ear can't hear properly and carrying my heavy laptop. Waited patiently for the families in front to settle their payment coz something worng with their credit cards. There were a couple, a lady and a tall western friend plus I myself lining up to wait for our turn. Being understanding customers, we waited patiently and holding his breath for the congestion. Mable waited for me til almost melting and she was still waiting without a sound. Suddenly, an auntie and uncle came, cut our line as if they owned the shop and rush to buy their medication.
I don't understand why the pharmacist served them instead of us who had been lining up more than 20 min. What a DAY!!! When it was our turn, they didn't serve us politely but just throw the medication we want on the counter. Looking from their point of view, I know they are stress and the auntie and uncle need their medication but we are customers and also seriously needing our medication too... we didn't even show them any faces =.="... What a day! What is the problem???
Situation 3: Then, Mable and I went to Coffee Bean. I bought my coffeee and go online. I have no other choice but use the the nearest plug. Here come a group of teens. That two guys rush to buy drinks and kicked my adapter. My laptop and my coffee were almost on the floor!!! I know that in this situation there is no right or wrong so immediately without thinking I apologised. Irony is THEY GAVE ME A LOOK AND STARED AT ME! Mable and I were pissed too. Gentlemen! What is in your mind!!!
I told Mable that they gave me a look even I apologised first. And, in this pissed situation I did complain but I did not curse. I said out loud coz I knew that their gals' frens are behind me. WHAT A DAY!!!! They stood up when the guys walked here and said out loud that they want to move place to another side with a rude tone. I did feel uncomfortable. However, I choose to pretend I do not care anymore and I do not bother to look. Many customers will do what I do which is sit to the nearest table less than even 0.5 metre and plug in to go online. Well, I won't say out loud next time or at least wait til they left. I don't know what is the problem. It was an accident! Gentlemen!!! =.="
WHAT A DAY!!!!! I do not want to let these poeple spoil my mood. It is affecting Mable's mood as well. Ending this blog with prayer.