I want to be fit. I am been in the dilemma of renting house and staying at places that are old. When will I have a new house? New kitchen, living room, toilet, bedroom and working room?
God puts me in it. I don't know why. I feel so dry and down for the past few weeks and I don't have any choices or any side to go when I am down into oppression, accusation and stress.
I feel disappointed. The faith is there but the Jesus I used to be so closed with is as though absent. His voice says that He is still here, His words tell me that He will never leave me but I can't sense His anointing and strong sweet wet presence for a long time already.
When will it be back to normal? My life has been stirred until it can't go back to normal but I pray it will be beautiful blessing flowing everywhere by the end of the day.
27 Feb 2011
4 Feb 2011
I guess many people have blogged about CNY and how unhappy or happy they are during this CNY. Anyone can easily read what you write about them here.
I don't want to blog anything about my family whether it is good, bad, mistreated, being loved and blessed - Jesus walked with me. Thank you Jesus for such a close relationship you give me.
Often, many of us, we feel kind of left our during Chinese New Year as most of our relatives might not be of the same age and share the same interest. I feel closer to Jesus when I feel kind of left out. No one can love and care for us like Jesus does. Our parents' love is the secondary love from God and I personally have this thought that God created human and made us have parenting love for our children just like how He loves us.
Have you ever walked so closed and know deep in your soul and heart that Jesus is real and He is close with you every day? He is.
I don't want to blog anything about my family whether it is good, bad, mistreated, being loved and blessed - Jesus walked with me. Thank you Jesus for such a close relationship you give me.
Often, many of us, we feel kind of left our during Chinese New Year as most of our relatives might not be of the same age and share the same interest. I feel closer to Jesus when I feel kind of left out. No one can love and care for us like Jesus does. Our parents' love is the secondary love from God and I personally have this thought that God created human and made us have parenting love for our children just like how He loves us.
Have you ever walked so closed and know deep in your soul and heart that Jesus is real and He is close with you every day? He is.
3 Feb 2011
Love. Children. Loved one. Friends. Brothers and sisters.
If you love him/her, give him a blank piece of paper to create.
Present him every opportunity to hand on to help than prepare everything and too comfortable; thus, he forgets how to have comfort and immune to servant hood.
Prepare him a room, with simple bed, simple table, chair and shelfs, for growth, improvement and self discovery.
Give him space to move, express and to be moody.
Give him a wide window for sunlights to shine and shadows to follow so he can feel life, nature and beauty.
Prepare him simple food and simple 'umbrella' for 'rain' - you know what 'umbrella' you need for your home and loved ones.
Show him discipline, talk and reinforcement when it is needed.
'spare the rod, spoil the child'. - Proverbs
'If your brother sins against you, go and tell him his fault, between you and him alone. ' - Matthew.
'Love thy neighbour like your love thyself'
Show respect, love, care, good response, flexibility, share wise thoughts for action is louder than words - he WILL follow and realise.
Put God first for no other things should be before the Almight.
------ Kicpling ------
If you love him/her, give him a blank piece of paper to create.
Present him every opportunity to hand on to help than prepare everything and too comfortable; thus, he forgets how to have comfort and immune to servant hood.
Prepare him a room, with simple bed, simple table, chair and shelfs, for growth, improvement and self discovery.
Give him space to move, express and to be moody.
Give him a wide window for sunlights to shine and shadows to follow so he can feel life, nature and beauty.
Prepare him simple food and simple 'umbrella' for 'rain' - you know what 'umbrella' you need for your home and loved ones.
Show him discipline, talk and reinforcement when it is needed.
'spare the rod, spoil the child'. - Proverbs
'If your brother sins against you, go and tell him his fault, between you and him alone. ' - Matthew.
'Love thy neighbour like your love thyself'
Show respect, love, care, good response, flexibility, share wise thoughts for action is louder than words - he WILL follow and realise.
Put God first for no other things should be before the Almight.
------ Kicpling ------
2 Feb 2011
So, I am home now. It seems like almost every corner and every building in Penang has changed except home.
It can be good and bad.
The moment I entered my house, haven't even change, dad started to ask me to show him my medical report. I totally forgot to bring home!!! *Shuuuuut* The next thing is my diet is being questioned and the next thing is all the rules and regulations I must follow. The next thing is all important letters were given to me whether I have time to take a breath or not I must take all of them and read them now.
The next thing is how much is my salary - check all the details like as though I am a girl - well, i am fine if people ask as they care but as to compare with cousins and keep telling me what wrong foot steps others have taken won't help. I don't look up to them and most of all I am not them. I am who I am and I am a sinful person God saved and renewed.
Checking out all my things and only leave comments that I wish I never know. Is this Chinese thing? I really don't understand. I have Chinese blood, I grow up learning mandarin and share the same culture. However, it is just different. WHy ah?
God, bring me to walk with you closer and I hope I have patience for these few days. Thank you for your faithfulness.
It can be good and bad.
The moment I entered my house, haven't even change, dad started to ask me to show him my medical report. I totally forgot to bring home!!! *Shuuuuut* The next thing is my diet is being questioned and the next thing is all the rules and regulations I must follow. The next thing is all important letters were given to me whether I have time to take a breath or not I must take all of them and read them now.
The next thing is how much is my salary - check all the details like as though I am a girl - well, i am fine if people ask as they care but as to compare with cousins and keep telling me what wrong foot steps others have taken won't help. I don't look up to them and most of all I am not them. I am who I am and I am a sinful person God saved and renewed.
Checking out all my things and only leave comments that I wish I never know. Is this Chinese thing? I really don't understand. I have Chinese blood, I grow up learning mandarin and share the same culture. However, it is just different. WHy ah?
God, bring me to walk with you closer and I hope I have patience for these few days. Thank you for your faithfulness.
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