Hang on or let go?

I believe that many people are at the point of the top where they feel like letting it go and then the next thing you know you fall. Fall to the nearest cliff or totally to the ground.

I have no idea why I climb high up and at this point of time I only have one hand holding myself up. I feel like I can't take it anymore and feel like letting myself fall to the ground.

Does it worth it? I feel that it is not worth it and I should bite on. However, I still have this feeling to just let go and don't want to care anymore. Is that what my friend feels too? What decision they make?

It is going to be a life chancing decision once we let go. Why do I have to struggle? Why can't I have another support to come at the right timing to pull me up?

No one seems to know that I am falling off the cliff soon. No one seems to care or help. No one. Every one just so busy of themselves. What should I do? Like Jesus self sacrifice? What should I do?

Am I?

I went shopping today and realised that most women in the ladies store were either small in size or extremely thin. When I stood next to them, I felt like I was a round penguin meeting a big group of giraffes.

The next depressing thing was most clothes I tried had already run out of sizes or too big or too tight. None just comfortably fit. I am looking for comfortably fit! The market only sees people like them to be their customers, penguin's size like me is not welcome.

Am I overweight or obese? Most women I meet, they are small, tall and fit or extremely thin... Gosh... I feel so emo thinking about that as though I don't even deserve to eat because I already have enough calories to last me the whole month!

Can I fly?

Am I a flightless bird? ... I know only God will make me fly with me...

Did I?

Did I miss any sunshine opportunity? God tells me...

Pengu students

My students look like them when the main instructor is out of the classroom to talk to parents. Most of them does not know what to do and they will just stand their with their hands straight down and calling gently 'teacher PoayLing...' They are so adorable. May Jesus protect and bless them. Jesus loves children and the one with child-like heart will enter the kingdom of God.

Emo.

A picture speaks a thousand words. This is how I feel. Tight down. Need anointing from heaven to wet me.

Lord, I need you more and more each day. Please don't leave me waiting dry. Thank you Jesus.