Silent killer

Justice                               

justice, 

JUSTICE.

Where have you been?

They are killing her silently.

LOVE

love

LOVE.

No heart among them has you stay inside.

They let you become just lust.

I try.

I tried.              i try                  i am trying                      I AM TRYING

not to stop loving them but my heart is tired and angry for their deed.

My life is in Your hand. Lord, have mercy for us. Have mercy for us. Have mercy for us. 

Hear my prayer from my compasionate heart for the land I live. 

I want to be confirm first then announce

I got it! I got it! Excited yet I have my worries. I wish it is a confirm that I get it. :) 

I learn to list down my worries and then see what I can do about it:

1. I hope others won't put too much expectation from me just because I got a professional degree in education. I am still learning and on the way to professional. I am willing to learn. I am willing to learn from the zero to hero. 

2. I am worried that I might not be able to handle them. 

3. I am worried that my written language is not good enough. 

4. I think sometimes I have low self esteem that is why I am anxious about doing mistakes.

5. I hope my conversation with the boss is guided with wisdom and pray that Jesus is at my side.

6. I hope they inform me as soon as they can where they are sending me. 

7. I hope I mean what I say. I don't want to say about my plans or passion or interest just because I am in the situation that I must say something. Yet, I mean it if I really say it. 

8. I worry that I might disappoint people as I don't think I am proffesional yet. I will learn :) I promise! 

I care

I care.

I care.

And

I care.

I care the boxes you collected for me.
I care the things that you fixed with your flip of fingers.
I care when you drive me around for my things and for my day.
I care when you spend time talking to me to calm me, share my problems and blames.
I care when you are angry.
I care when your face change.
I care when your bag is heavy and you have to carry them around.
I care when you came with my dinner.
I care when you are hungry.
I care when you are rushing to work and to class.
I care when I hear your unhappiness.
I care because you are my best friend ever.
I care because you are the best I ever met.
I care because I love you.

I care yet not knowing how to express more is tearing off my heart and mind for you.

Peak season

This is the year and the months that most of us come to a point that we could not decide what is the next step. I feel that I am on a peak wondering where to jump and worry where will I land. But, I believe once we have decided we will jump down and spear our wings and fly freely like birds. 

All the best for all of my friends. May God bless you and protect you along the ways you walk.